Sitting here I find serenity. Basic self-care is all that I have to focus on today. I got up, made the bed, checked my blood glucose level and poured my tea. There was that one email to a client that had to go out - I will continue to help take care of client needs that may arise. For the most part, I am unavailable to the world.
I measured out the egg substitute for my breakfast protein. I placed the chopped onion and cherry tomatoes in the pan to heat up before adding the eggs. The finished omelette tasted amazing to me. How wonderful it is to take my time preparing breakfast. I counted a small orange as the 2nd carbohydrate - skim milk in my tea being the first.
My blood glucose levels have been steady - I have been consistent with exercise. Weight is dropping. All is going along as hoped. I will see the doctor next Friday to find out what the next steps are.
Having just moved into our condo last week, nobody knows me here and no one cares about what I am doing. Oh they may be politely curious about the new people who moved in next door. They tell me this condo was empty for 3 year. I have not felt so anonymous. I'm visible yet I am invisible. I am acutely aware that someone is on the other side of the wall from me and I do not live with them - or do I? I never lived in a condominium before. However, having lived and worked in one community for 50 plus years, I know people everywhere I go back home. It is a freeing experience - I feel unemcumbered & in the middle of a unique opportunity to reinvent myself, Somehow, 58 hours does not seem like enough time to do that. But I can make a start.
I spent yesterday afternoon adjusting to being alone. It was nice. I had the doors and windows open and so was able to hear conversations going on outside in the condominium complex I am in. There is an abundance of agape warmth here. Neighbors here care about one another. One neighbor volunteers at a community garden coordinating it for the town. He came home after a long day of planting and began watering the flower bed in front of his condo. Then he took his watering can next door to where he has planted a garden for another. People were coming and going, while exchanging pleasantries. Another neighbor was cleaning off her car. She is a shopkeeper in town and had come home mid afternoon. Then I noticed she was cleaning someone else's car along with her own. I wondered about that for a few moments before it occurred to me to sit with this knowledge in gratitude. I witnessed a third and fourth act of kindness outside my window yesterday as well.
There was the 3rd neighbor who brought a big bag of cleaned and ready to cook striped bass from his catch of the day to the neighbor who'd planted him a garden. This exchange of kindness continued when I was included in this exchange. I was to hand out a plate to the recipient of the fish fillets. My catch of the day...He filled my plate! Last night's dinner was a gift to me from this amazing Bali Hai Island which has summoned me for decades.
I'm seriously considering spending a lot more time here. This place is a bit like heaven. My cup is over flowing.
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